-its not like we are having an affair...

CRUSHABLE


Let's play around the fire without getting too close
And feel all the heat without feeling the burn
Let's just call it what it is, no more than just a crush
I won't leave the one I love for this but I'm loving the rush.
Even though she owns my heart, borrow my attention for a day
Say everything you always wanted to but couldn't really say
Feed the ego with sweet words and a flirty smile
Just experiencing this chemistry is worthwhile
And I'll settle with staring at your eyes
Nothing more than just hearing your voice
We could go farther than that
But we both know it's not the right choice.
So just settle with looking at my eyes
And knowing I know you're there
Crushing and flirting is human nature
It's not like we're having an affair

And you are so crushable,
It just feels like a good high
There is nothing wrong about itthere is no reason to lie
But it is just a crush
And it will eventually go away
So let's enjoy the feeling
Until we get to that day.

I have no intention on getting physical
Even though, I don't deny it, it crossed my mind
But there is no crime in appreciating beauty
I can't help but to stare, I'm not blind
And this crush it's not so hard to understand
Your voice melts the floor where I stand
And how can someone not like you anyway
You're a beautiful sunshine on a rainy day
But I belong to someone else,
The one that owns more than my heart
And the feelings I feel for her
Are enough to keep you and me apart
But that don't stop me from telling you
How beautiful and sweet you are
And that I get lost in your voice
When you sing to the melody of your guitar

Because you are so crushable,
And this feels like a good high
There is nothing to do about itthis is my way to say goodbye
But at the end it's just a crush
And eventually it will go away
But until that happens
I'll think of you and smile everyday...

-Life goes on with or without us; we are meant to be apart…

THE ROSE

Today I'm here to tell you how I feel about you
It is kind of complicated, to tell you the truth
It's a mix between affection, desire and attraction
Just trying to understand it drives me to distraction
I wish I could have you here with me,
I wish I knew what you and I could be,
I wish I could see you at least once
And I wish I had at least one chance
To have you in my arms without letting go
To kiss your lips goodbye or just to say hello
To feel your body naked while we sleep…
But ill step back now before I'm in too deep.
I can't blame it on the moon this time… I'm a fuckin mess
To want what I can't have keeps pushing the stress!
3 voices whispering inside trying to tell me what to do
One begs me to turn around and think of consequences too
Another moans her name and claims just once it's not a crime
A third one sighs with "not this life, not this place, not this time"…

Hopeless desires of being with you just not too close
Dance with me, seduce me slowly and take off your clothes
I wanna see your naked body from your head to your toes
Touch your lips, grab your hips and kiss your nose
Lay down next to me so I can hear the beat of your heart
And save it with my memories for the day I part

So I know you're not the one for me
And I know you and me will never be
But I can't seem to get over you
It don't make sense, this is all too new
Liking you this much makes it all so hard
Makes me afraid of letting down my guard
Cuz if around you, I don't know what I could do
If I'm not around you I'm afraid of losing you
But time will tell the story of you and I
A story that never started and it was destined to die
Our hopes, dreams and expectations flew so high
We lost control of them and they reached the sky
Now we gotta bring them back to us and hide them in a box
And bury them 6 feet under the dirt and the rocks

Hopeless desire of keeping you alive my beautiful rose
But your petals are falling now so take off your clothes
I wanna feel your naked body from your head to your toes
Touch your lips, grab your hips and kiss your nose
I understand now, it is over… I cannot give you my heart
Life goes on with or without us… we are meant to be apart…

-what happens in the dark shall always come to light!

So they say once a cheater always a cheater. But are cheaters born to cheat, or do certain situations cause people to cheat!? So im going to give you some reasons why I think people cheat.

-BORED: I probably say this is definitely one of the reasons do to the fact that it is hard to keep that fire going. To always have those butterflies when your phone rings or getting ready to go out with the. Things always start off in the DREAM world and you are on cloud nine but thing start to level off and you realize its back to the real world. So what do people do!? They get bored and seek for that feeling in somebody else and that goes in to the next reason…

-DEPENDENCE/INDEPENDENC: Most people think cheating is more of and independent thing to do. Standing ground on the whole, “I can do what I want when I want to.” When in reality it’s the complete opposite. It’s a person being insecure with them selves. Not being able to be real to there partner. You are being dependent on your partner and not being strong enough to break up with them.

-CONFUSION: You don’t know if you want to be with them so you test yourself. But personally if you are second guessing yourself then something needs to change with in your relation ship before you step outside your relationship. Remember always close one door before you open another. Unless you are going to walk through that door together.

-BECAUSE THEY LET YOU: If I was cheated on I wouldn’t stay with them. I have been in that situation and tried to move past it but its like once that trust is lost the relationship is over. Forgiving somebody who cheated on you is one thing but to stay with them is another.

-REVENGE: This is very simple; an eye for an eye. Cheat on them if they cheat on you. Not realizing that we can’t control KARMA and how people treat us if there karma and how we react is ours.

-MAKING SURE “WE STILL GOT IT”: egotistical thing to do but definitely true and happens all the time. Makes you feel good to know you can get the attention from the hot guy/girl when you are out and about. But in doing that you allow that door to be knocked on most people don’t open it but some do.

-THRILL: Some people just enjoy the thrill of cheating: running around secretly, risking getting caught, and creating thrilling moments with a forbidden romance.

Some people don’t realize that what they do is considered cheating. If you are exclusively dating somebody with out a title and you go and do something. It is a form of cheating. You are hurting the person you so call care for.

I don't understand why people don't break up as soon as they have an urge to cheat. Is it natural to have temptation, or is temptation a sign that the relationship is losing its fire? What reasons would you add to this list, and do you disagree with any? If you've ever cheated, why did you do it? Could you forgive a cheater? If you are single, but seeing a person who is in a committed relationship, does that make you a cheater?

Comfortable in your own skin-

I was 18 years old when I finally came out and told my mother and everybody else I was interested in females. Everybody thought it was just something I was going through and said it would pass but I always knew that I was attracted to them. I knew I wasn’t gay but I knew that I wasn’t straight either.

I can remember being a little girl and being confused. I clearly knew that I liked boys but I also looked at girls in the same way.

Apparently my mother always knew though. I came out to her over the phone and her response was, “DUH! I’ve known since you where about 6 years old.” I definitely have to say it was a sigh of relief. She has never judged me. She actually rather me be with a female then with a male.

I guess in me writing this I just want to let people know; that it is okay to be comfortable in your own skin. Be who you are and love who you want. It goes back to the whole, “MIND OVER MATTER.” Those who matter doesn’t mind and will always except you for who you are and those who mind just don’t matter. Point. Blank. Period.

A little food for thought about me-

I am a 23 year old single mother of a handsome little boy of whom I truly live for. I've struggled; I've fought, lost and hit my rock bottom, dusted my feet off and struggled to hope again. I’m a lot of what you may never want to be, I give up when I’m not supposed too, I loose focus but I want to be better. There’s more depth to me than what many would assume. Trying to even understand me as a person will be your greatest challenge. I am everything you are not. I have morals and am very selective with the people I decide are worth my trouble. If I don’t speak to you then it’s more then likely because I don’t trust your intentions. If I can’t read you, you sure as hell won’t be able to read me. I may come off as a little stuck up and kind of bitchy but how I see it is; if you actually take the time to see past that then maybe I will take a little time to get to know you. Oh and please don’t take it as me being negative its just that I have a wall built and if you want to get to know me and be in my life then I’m sure you will take the time to slowly but surely knock it down.

I am going to use this as a way of speaking what is on my mind. If you want me to talk about a specific subject or ask advice you can email me @ princesajodi@yahoo.com –

Hope you enjoy.